Day 11: Wondering

Today has been a long day to say the least! I'm already exhausted but also excited about life. Things are going well...we've started looking for a three bedroom apartment to move into whenever the time is right...three kids makes the need for more room! But I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm grateful to have such amazing children.

Also, a note of excitement for you all: my brother just submitted his mission papers! Needless to say I'm so excited for him. He's such a good kid and I'm really proud of him and his desire to want to go on a mission. I know he's going to do amazing...now all we have to do is wait and speculate as to where he's going! Any guesses?

Also I've been doing a lot of thinking...I've been think about my life and my dreams...I've always dreamt about becoming a writer. I love writing. I love creating something from my imagination...I love being able to express myself through words...but sometimes I get frustrated and down on myself. I doubt that I can do this. I don't think that anyone would really be interested in my writing...and the process of finding someone and getting the novel published seems insurmountable at times...it's enough to bring you to the brink of insanity and really depress you. It's a hard process to go through.

But I know that if I just keep trying I'll be happy. No matter what happens in my writing career I know that I will only be happy if I write. Writing to me is an expression of the soul. I know that as long as I keep writing I'll be living my dream...ultimately yes it would be nice to be published, but in the end it doesn't really matter. I write because I want to, not because I want money...I write because it's my passion.

And that's all I've got to say on that!